So I am really hesatating even bringing this up, but this is my "daydream" web log so I will. Why not, right?
Okay, so what is the topic? It is about babies! Yep, babies! That is what has been on my mind. I know that Chris and I have not even been married for a year, but that is what is on "my mind". There are so many things to think about in life and for me this is one of those that must take careful consideration and loving thought.
That is why I am talking about it. You see, this past weekend I received a packet in the mail from the Children's Administration offering to pay my schooling tuition and a monthly stipend. Great, right? That was both Chris' and my first thought, but what is the catch (don't worry I'll get to the baby stuff latter)? The catch is that I would have to work for the state, the same amount of time that they paid my schooling and in addition to that I would have to move to any where in Washington State that a job position needed filled. That my friends is a problem. With Chris working on his career in the Tacoma Public School District as well as working on his Ed.D at Seattle Pacific University, the whole notion of moving (possibly) to some odd place in Washington for a desk job (which if you know me, drives me absolutely NUTS) is unreasonable.
Okay, so now you ask, "what dose all of this have to do with babies?"
Well, After "first considering this offer I was trying to think of a way where I could still have a child before I turned 30 (not that having them at 30 is bad) and still get to spend the first few years with him/her. So trying to rationally (or irrationally) think this out, I decided that Chris and I should maybe consider trying to have a child in the next year, so that all of this could be accomplished.
So with this all thought out in my head, I went to Chris on Sunday afternoon to present him with my case! First of all, I learned that sitting down at the kitchen table to tell your husband that you would like to start to try having kids should be done with ample amount of padding on the floor to lessen the fall. Second, don't try so desperately hard not to smile (because of your excitement) that you look as though you are giving him puppy eyes. Third, rationally write out all of the reason why you think that you would like to start having children before you present your case to your husband. This should be done so that you have a well thought out plan of discussion.
Well after I got done presenting my feelings towards the matter at hand, Chris looked at me with the most serious face and asked, "Are you serious?"
It was at that moment that I knew that Chris was not any where near having the same feelings about starting to have kids and that I would have to either; A: persuade him, or B: genuinely reconsider and listen carefully to what my loving and caring husband had to say about the matter.
What is the results?
Well, Chris and I have prayerfully considered both sides of the discussion and have decided that having a child is ultimately in God's hands and that we would continue to pray about the matter.
So where dose that leave me and my feelings? In the exact same place and Chris', but that I think that I am still going to wait until I am finished with school (unless God has other plans). I do know that I will not be taking up the Children's Administrations offer to pay my tuition. I do not want to be tied down by a contract that may ultimately lead to not be the best outcome for our family.
Okay, I guess that is all for now!
Love,
Mareesha
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